about everything and anything.
Questions, such as “Does Beverly ever fully recover” and me thinking out loud about a sequel for TDB…
I warn you if you haven’t READ the whole of TDB, don’t watch this!
Loads of spoilers!xxx
I will answer everything! abotu everything!
Want to do a video about TDB.. Since I ended it, so if you have any questions send them in please ?XXX
Questions about TOO are allowed too :)X
The wind went through our hair, as we were all sitting on the beach, with all, I meant loads of people.
First of all, Newlyweds Louis and Eleanor, just having come back from their honeymoon, full of love bites and all. They seemed happy, which made me happy, offcourse I was happy. Ok, I could’ve been super depressed, that Louis got married to the one girl that ruined our relationship, but I wasn’t mad at all, they were happy, Louis was happy, so I was happy. I just looked at him, the way his blue eyes were covered by beautiful sunglasses, his hair being waved away by the wind, while his strong arms were around Eleanor, who was just leaning with her back against his chest, he looked hot, very hot, for someone that was in the late/mid twenties (it was 2019, do the math yourself). He was hot, but then again, offcourse he was, or I would’ve never fucked him against every wall in our apartment.
The next ‘couple’ that was sitting was Niall and Romy, they both looked super happy, and that was because they were expecting their first one, in just seven months, which made them super happy, they wanted to wait a while before telling us, but they just couldn’t and had told us just a week ago. You could really see Romy shine. She was laying on the sand, with her head on Niall’s lap, as Niall was just sitting there shirtless, with a beer in his hands, looking out into the sky, thinking about every day life. Thinking about how he was going to be a father, and thinking about how his family would react in one short month. He was happy, so I was happy, his now brown hair (He had stopped bleaching it, since it was too painful) was beautiful, and really really cute too(What, I was allowed to say that ok?) And his blue eyes that were matched with those (even if they were covered by sunglasses) matched him perfectly, making Romy melt ever single time she saw him (she had told me that) and they were pretty much in love, like always.
The next ‘set’. Was Liam, Danielle and Taylor.
Danielle was sitting in the sand, just taken off her shirt, showing a purple bikini, which matched her eyes and her hair perfectly. Her curly hair up into a bun on the top of her head, while she was wearing sunglasses, I wasn’t going to deny, she looked smoking hot, but then again she was, but she wasn’t my type. Her body was beautiful, but not my type, and her personality was perfect, but again not my type. But Liam loved her with all his heart, so that was good, that was amazing.
Liam was sitting, wearing only a pair of swimming trousers, and a pair of sunglasses, his hair like it was during ‘One thing’. Loose, and beautiful, his brown hair waving all over the place, and to be honest, I thought it looked pretty cute as well, but then again, all the boys were cute in my opinion.
He was currently putting sunlotion on his almost 3 year old daughter.
Which was the most beautiful little girl I’d ever seen. She had a slim body, and a beautiful little roundish face, with a mixed nose, with the most beautiful piercing brown eyes. She had the hairtype of her father, but the curls from her mother, and it was now in a small bow, just like her mother, while she had on the cutest little pink bathingsuit, since she was in the ‘I’m a princess’ phase, which was the cutest thing ever. She was just so beautiful.
She was also a very bright kid, very smart, just like my son, but that didn’t matter. She also could dance, well how greatly you can dance for a two year old, but that didn’t matter, and she also had the voice of an angel, and I’m speaking of talking and singing, they were both beautiful so yeah. She reminded me a lot of her beautiful mother, and I looked at her beautiful mother for a second, who was now smiling widely clapping as she looked at her daughter, who was now standing up and doing a turn, to show how beautiful she looked, which she really did.
The next set, was Zayn, Jennifer and little Luke.
Little Luke, was the most precious (after Zayn off course) baby I had ever seen in my entire life, He had the brightest brown eyes, and the most beautiful soft brown hair in the entire world, and he had the cutest laugh too, it was all just very sweet. But then again he was, so that made some sense. But he was only about a month old, so he was protected by a little sheet, so that he wouldn’t get too much sand all around him. He was the cutest thing ever.
His mother, Jennifer, had pretty much not gained any weight, since well, she was just so beautiful, and the idea that she was made for me, after Louis, scared me in a way to think that that might’ve been my baby and that I was the one she was leaning her head on, sort of scared me, but it also made me happy in a way, because I would’ve been so lucky to have her too, with her amazing looks and all. But she was with Zayn, and I didn’t mind that, as long as he was happy. She was wearing this red bikini, making her sort of tanned body look absolutely amazing, and made her tattoo (She had gotten a tattoo with ‘Luke is my angel’ in Italian or something) that was on her left shoulder, just above her heart, look amazing. She had her brown hair in a high bun as well, since it was rather warm.
Her hubby, was sitting behind her, while her head was on his lap, and his black/brown hair was just hanging loose, being blown away by the wind (like always) and his brown eyes were covered by the sunglasses he had, he was only wearing a pair of swimming trousers, and he actually looked quite hot (like always). But also the thought, that he was made for my wife, from the very beginning, was kind of scary, and you could still see it in the way that he acted towards her, the way they acted to each other, just pretty much proved how much they loved each other. But it also proved that they’d finally moved on„ knowing that it wasn’t ever going to happen.
So they were happy.
The next two people I saw was Adam.
He had decided to come to the beach with us, due to the fact, that he needed some people around him, and he was actually having a great time. I knew that he would one day be fully happy again, even if that was hard without the love of his life, but he would make it. I knew he would.
His brown hair was hanging loose like all the boys, while wearing sunglasses. Wearing a pair of swimming trousers, and making a sandcastle with a huge smile on his face, while looking at my son.
My little almost three year old boy. With the blonde Styles curls, and the Harry Styles face, and the Beverly Styles Blue beautiful eyes, just playing with Adam, making a sandcastle, since he had not been as happy as he was now, even if the first question he had asked adam was.
“Didn’t you go along to wherever Luke went to?” I had expected Adam to go mental, but instead of doing that, he just bend down, looked at my son, and smiled.
“No, he needed to go there alone. But that’s great, cause that means I get to spend even more time with the most amazing little kid in the whole entire world”
you should’ve seen Zayn’s face.
They were now building sandcastles, as Zayn was telling him all kinds of stories about the animals in the zoo, And Adam promised him that they would go there together one day.
I then looked to the person sitting next to me.
Beverly Maura Styles.
She was sitting there looking so beautiful, as she sun was slowly setting, her sunglasses just on her knees, as she had her arms around her knees, her chin on her arms, as she looked absolutely beautiful.
Her lips slightly pouted, on her arm, as she was sucking on it slightly, I knew that, because I knew her ‘sucking’ face. After that one night, which was a month ago, we had had another one of those amazing nights (which was last night) so there were some fresh love bites on her neck, but that didn’t mind, the boys were just happy that she was slowly becoming herself again.
Her hair, was still from the swim she had gotten back about ten minutes ago, I had joined her, and we had just swam a tad, but she enjoyed swimming, and she looked absolutely beautiful to be honest.
Her black bikini, that looked slightly like lingerie, wearing that just to annoy me, which had made me smile so widely in the morning, making her smile too, which just lit up my day. Her body was amazing, it just looked amazing.
Everyone had noticed that Beverly was slightly happier then normal, some of the guys joked around saying it was because of the sex, while Jennifer said, that it meant that she was slowly recovering, and that we just had to be patient, since the time was slowly passing by, and it was almost a year since the accident.
I just looked at her face, the way she now let go of her arm, looking down at her arm, and wiping away the saliva with her arm, while then putting her chin back on her arm, as she looked at the sun setting, and she probably thought of something, probably thought of Luke, but that didn’t matter, cause she always did, especially since we were with everyone from the one direction crew, accept him, but she looked sort of happy I guess.
“Why are you putting sunlotion on, when the sun is leaving?” Liam said, me looking away from Beverly for a second, looking at the conversation that was going on, and Danielle just looked at him.
“Cause, I do it so that you can massage me” She said, and Liam just looked at her and smiled super widely as he pouted his lips, and she smiled giving him a small kiss on her lips.
Niall then sort of laughed.
“You don’t even need to say something like that for me wanting to kiss you” Niall ‘whispered’ and Romy laughed as she gave Niall a kiss.
Louis and Eleanor were already kissing, and they now let go, smiling looking at each other, making me happy.
It was then silent for a while, except for the story about a dinosaur by Zayn, which was the most beautiful thing ever, and very interesting (This is indeed sarcasm).
I looked at the sea for a second.
“He loves you, you know?” A voice then said, which no one recognized at first, but I recognized it right away, and I turned my head to look at Beverly right away, as Beverly was just looking at Jennifer.
Everyone let go of their loved ones. (Jennifer and Zayn were the only ones that weren’t making out with their loved one, they were looking at their little son, slowly falling asleep. Ok and Adam was playing with Zayn. But even Zayn was silent). I just looked at Beverly, and I had first thought that I had just misheard it, but I had not, I had actually heard her voice, and everyone else did, which was the ultimate proof that I wasn’t just making things up.
Jennifer just stared back at Beverly, with a sort of smile.
“Huh what?” She said, and Beverly took one deep breath, as she smiled looking at Zayn for a second, who was smiling back at her, probably understanding what the hell she was saying, as I just put my hand on hers for a second.
Beverly then looked down at her hand, then looking back at my eyes, before looking back at Jennifer.
Zayn was looking at me, and I stared back at him, he had taken off the sunglasses, and I had too, and I was just looking at him.
“Zayn. He loves you” She said, and her voice was just as beautiful as it always was, it was quite dry, quite husky, but it was beverly, and Zayn’s head looked at her right away, and Jennifer looked at beverly with the biggest smile ever, remembering the promise Beverly had made her brother, and I took one deep breath as A tear rolled down my cheek, as everyone was just looking at Ley in amazement, and I was just the proudest i’ve always been.
“Yeah. I know” Jennifer said, and Beverly gave her a small smile, as she then looked at Zayn, who smiled back looking at her, as a tear rolled down his cheek, well down everyone’s cheeks.
Because, it was so of beverly, for the first thing she would ever say, was the surprise she had given Luke. It just was the way she rolled, the way she was.
“Good. You needed to know that” She then said, and Jennifer smiled looking at her, and Zayn smiled, as she gave Jennifer a small kiss on her cheek.
I then leaned forward doing the same thing Zayn had done to Jennifre, and I gave Beverly a small kiss on her cheek, as Beverly smiled, as she looked into my eyes for a second, and I stared back at her, knowing that I wouldn’t’ always be able to talk with her, but that somehow, today was a good day.
She then looked back at Zayn and Jennifer, and I followed her gave for a second, and Zayn opened his mouth to say something, but Beverly just shook her head, not wanting to hear it, which made Zayn shake his head slightly, but with the biggest smile on his face. And they just kept staring into each others eyes, both of them smiling.
I then looked away from Beverly and Zayn, and searched for Louis’ Blue eyes, and he was already looking at me, and we both gave each other a small smile.
Both understanding that we loved each other very much, and understanding the connection those two had, and I couldn’t help but smile looking into his eyes as he then winked at me, and I winked back at him, as I then looked back at Beverly, who was looking at me now.
She just stared into my eyes.
“I love you” She whispered, and I smiled very widely looking at her, as she stared into my eyes, and I looked back into the most beautiful blue eyes in the whole entire world.
“I love you too” I whispered back, and she just smiled as she put her hand on my cheek, and leaned forward giving me a small little peck on my lips, and she just smiled as she wanted to make the kiss longer, but I just took the hand from my face, and let go of her lips looking into her eyes.
“You’re from Ireland right?” I whispered, as my forehead was against hers, and she looked at me confused for a second, and she just gave me a small nod. “yeah, I heard it from your accent, it’s beautiful”
She looked at me for a second, suddenly remembering the first thing we ever said to each other, and she just smiled slightly.
“Thank you. Your voice isn’t so ugly yourself” She said with the biggest smile ever, and I smiled looking into those blue eyes.
The love still the same as ever.
will be posting the last chapter of TDB tonight. And tomorrow, or later this week, I’ll post the epilogue!..
This way I can post one chapter every 1 or 2 days of TOO!! whoehoe
“Are you ok Ley?” I whispered on a sunny monday afternoon in June, She was sitting on her bed, and I was standing by the doorway, having looked at her, looking at the laptop for quite a while now, and she looked up with her beautiful blue eyes, and Blue met green as she stared at me, and she gave me a small nod, she then pointed her finger towards me, and sort of ‘lured’ me over to her, as if to say ‘come her’.
I took one deep breath as I then went and sat down next to her, and I gave her a small kiss on her temple, her not flinching anymore, as I then looked at the laptop screen.
On it, it had two word documents.
The one on the left was “Giving up 2” Which was 654 pages long, which made me confused as to what the hell would be in there, and I looked at her for a second, as she then quickly typed on the front page.
“This is up till I found out bout you and Lou” She then quickly erased it, and I looked at her and nodded, and she then took the second Word document, and I looked at the title.
“Giving up 3” it had around the 531 pages, and to think that ‘part 1’ only had around the 300, made me sort of confused.
“This is up till the point on which I can talk, so I’ll continue writing that. It might take some years, so I might do an epilogue some time, but that doesn’t matter, it’s amazing if I say so myself, but yeah, I spend more then half of my time on it” She typed, before erasing it, and I looked at her for a second, and smiled.
“It , you’re.” I whispered looking at her, and she just looked back at me smiling.
“You’re amazing” I Said, and she gave me a small smile, as she then leaned forward giving me a small smile.
We then heard noise over the baby phone, and I realized that Little Zayn was awake, but I didn’t go and look, cause I could hear him moving until he finally stopped.
It was then silent, until I Heard his beautiful voice”
“Daddy told me, that whenever something was bugging me” He started, and I looked at Ley, who looked back at me. “I would have to sit by the window, and look up at the moon. I’ve been waiting until I could see the moon, but I finally found it”
I looked at Beverly, who was just listening closely.
“I’m sorry, that it took me a while until I contacted you, I just, didn’t think of it before, to be completely honest” He said, and I looked at Beverly. “I hope you’re ok wherever you are Luke”
Beverly froze slightly, and I just held onto her tighter as I continued listening.
“Daddy told me, that you were in a better place, a place you would enjoy, and to be completely honest once more. The moon does sound pretty cool, I also heard that you were a star, so I guess you’re traveling around in the sky, looking for a good place to stay.” I smiled slightly as Beverly did as well. “Daddy also said, that we couldn’t come over to you, to visit you, cause if we would, then we wouldn’t ever be able to go back. We couldn’t even drive by. But that’s ok, I like this talking thing so far though, even though I wished you would talk back. But then again, I’m used to people not talking back to me”
I closed my eyes for a second, as I then opened them again, Beverly looking at me for a second, before looking at the baby phone.
“I was wondering if you could help me Luke” Zayn then said. “Since you’ve been gone, Mommy hasn’t been the same. And I love her, I love her loads, but she’s just not my mommy any more you know?”
I just closed my eyes again, as I felt beverly putting her head on my chest.
“She’s lovely, I won’t deny that, but she’s just not the same any more. She hasn’t talked yet, she’s not happy, she’s just not her any more. IT scares me sometimes” He said. “And I know that, even though you must be happy over there, that you would make everyone here way more happy if you were here with us”
I just smiled slightly as I felt beverly pushing me down slightly as if to say ‘lay down’, and I did what I was told, as her head then went on my chest, her hand playing with the bottom of my shirt, as we continued listening.
“It doesn’t make mommy sad, well it does, but the whole talking thing, makes Daddy even more sad. And even though I love him being around all the time, I know that he misses his old job” He said. “And I know that he will never do that any more, and I don’t mind. But I do want him to be happy, and the only way daddy is happy, is if mommy is happy. And the only way mommy is happy, is if you help her”
I smiled. “I know I’m asking you a lot, but can you at least try to help her, please? She’s the best mommy in the world, but she needs you. She needs you”
“But I’m going to bed now, I’m really tired, and we’re going to the beach soon, I think it was next week, or next month, mommy and daddy won’t tell me, saying that ‘if I tell you, you wont sleep for ages’. So I’m sleeping greatly right now, so in case we do go, that i’m well rested!. I love you Luke, and I hope to hear from you soon”
I took one deep breath as I then opened my eyes, looking at Beverly, who stared back at me, tears in her eyes, as I then looked back at her, and Leaned forward, giving her a small kiss on the lips, her smiling widely as she kissed me back slightly.
She then proceeded on leaping on top of me, and for some strange reason, that turned me on way more then it was supposed to, but hey, it’s been almost a year. She just smiled slightly, as she then slowly took off my shirt, and I looked into her eyes for a second.
“This isn’t a good idea Ley, it’s been-” But I got shut off with a kiss, and I couldn’t help but laugh slightly as her hands then went down to my hip, and she turned the both of us around, as if to say ‘you like to be on top, i’ll let you be on top’.
I took off her shirt, and I went to the back of her breasts and took off her bra, everything all going way to fast, but I had to acknowledge the fact that I could do this, cause I never knew when it was going to be over.
My hands then slowly traced down to her waist, and I pulled down her pants, her just giggling slightly, me letting go of her lips right away, as I looked into her eyes, and she just stared back into those amazing eyes, as she looked at me as if she was saying ‘what’, and I just shook my head, as I put my lips against her neck and sucked on it.
“This is going to be hilarious” I whispered in her ear, as she took off my pants. “No offense off course. But you won’t be able to scream”
She laughed as I smiled my lips going down slowly as I kissed my way down to her body, before going back up to her lips, as both of our clothes were off.
“I love you” I whispered in her ear again, as I then couldn’t help it, but put it in her.
And boy it was amazing.
But then again, Ley was amazing.
(i’m sorry, I know the ‘first time’ should’ve been more amazing due to the fact that little Zayn asked Luke if Beverly could be ‘normal’ again, and the first thing that happens, is that they have sex, and that i’t’s a big stepp for Ley and all, but I just want to finish this fan fix, -2 more chapters to go- and I wasn’t in the mood )
He just looked at me, with his eyes, his judgmental eyes, as I stared back with my eyes, my scared eyes.
I don’t know why I was scared of him, why I am scared of him, I think it is the fact that he is, at the moment, the only person that can make me feel even worse then I already feel. Or the fact that his judgement about me, is really important, and with really important, I seriously mean really important.
He just stared back at me, and his whole body tensed up, and I looked into his hand, and I saw one of those balloons that would never break, it saying ‘Congratulations, it’s a boy’.
I looked back from the balloon into his eyes, him staring back at me.
“Hey Beverly, come to ruin another family?” He said, and I stared back at him, more tears streaming down my face, as he just stared back at me.
“O yeah, I forgot you can’t talk!” He said smiling so widely, and I looked at him and just shook my head, as I then took my cellphone and started typing something.
I then showed it to him, as he read : You do know, that Luke would’ve never wanted the two of us to hate each other.
“Like I had once said before, we will never know, due to the fact, that he’s gone, due to all you lot. If he had not been friends with you, he would’ve never been killed” He just looked as if he didn’t care, no emotion at all, and I took my cellphone and wrote: it’s Greg who killed him, that had nothing to do with our case, he would’ve gotten his revenge anyhow. And if he had not been friends with me, then he wouldn’t have met you at the airport in australia!”
He looked at me for a second, and rolled his eyes “If you’re actually going to play that card, then you’re pathetic. You do know that right? Well, if you don’t mind, I’m going to see my godchild be born, while you go and cry out in a corner, about ‘not being able to handle it’.” Adam said, and I looked at him for a second.
“Hey stop that” Harry’s voice said, and I turned around and Harry just stood there, and Adam looked at him with raised eyebrows.
“Or what Harry? Gonna punch me in the face, protect Beverly? Seriously, Punch me, but you know i’ll beat you anyhow, I’m one head taller then you” He scoffed, and Harry looked at me for a second.
“Look Adam, it’s been, I don’t know about half a year, can’t you just forgive us for what we did? It’s not like we actually WANTED Luke to die?”
Adam looked at him with raised eyebrows. “Just because you didn’t want it, doesn’t mean that it isn’t your fault”
“Is this really why you’re mad, or are you mad because she was the last person he ever talked to?” Harry said, as I was just standing in between them, leaning against the wall, as Adam and Harry were just standing in front of each other. “Because, I would, if Luke was the last person to ever talk to her, instead of me, I would be mad at him too, but I wouldn’t hurt him.I would ask him to leave me alone until I get used to the idea that she’s gone.”
“No you wouldn’t. You would kill yourself, cause you can’t deal with the idea of ever living without her. You told me that. So you shouldn’t bullshit about the way I deal with my pain. Cause you don’t know what i’m going through ok?” Adam yelled at him. “You should be happy that I’m even standing here, and that I didn’t follow Luke. I miss him ok? Is it bad that I miss him, and because I’ve only got two freaking people on this earth to blame for his death, I blame him, I can’t do anything else but blame you TWO. So let me fucking do it”
“Yes I would kill myself, that’s true, if it were up to me, that is. I know that nobody would ever accept me to do that, everyone would say that I should stay, and I would stay, and I do understand why you’re blaming us, Like I said. But you need to understand that what happened is what happened, and we can’t do anything about the fact that he’s gone. He’s not going to come back ok? And you’re doing something Luke hated, you’re hurting his best friend. You’re hurting Beverly” Harry said, very calmly, as I was just taking deep breaths, all this talking about Luke, just hurt me even more.
“How do you know what Luke feels-“
“she’s the one that killed him” Harry mocked Luke. “NO she didn’t do that ok? She didn’t pull the trigger, she didn’t scream when she got raped, they were meant to kill him, that were his intentions, and Beverly actually made him live longer. And the pathetic fact that you’re blaming her, when you should be blaming me, shows how lost you are. You need help ok, you need to see someone, because you’ve got some issues you need to solve” Harry said, saying it very calmly and friendly “If you want me to pay that, I will, since it’s my fault, but you need to talk to someone professional, who doesn’t have a say in what happens, since your whole family, and everyone you hang out with, blames the two of us!”
“I lost him Harry. I lost him. You don’t know how that feels” Adam whispered, and Harry closed his eyes for a second.
“I spend a whole day thinking that she was dead, you can’t tell me if I do or if I don’t know what you’re going through, cause I perfectly can” Harry whispered, and Adam just had tears spread all over his face, as he looked at me for a second and then back at Harry.
“I just miss him, and every time I look at the two of you, I remember all the great times I had with him, and the great times we could’ve had. We were planning on adopting you know, we had just made the decision, and we were going to kenya this summer and going to live there for a year, so that we could get a little one. We were going to call the agency right after the date you two had. We had plans, we had been thinking about buying a little house in france, to go to on holidays, and then live in the apartment with our little kid. We had all these plans, and all of the sudden they’re gone, and then I See you two. Having so many chances together, having the image we had planned. It just hurts” Adam whispered, and Harry looked at Adam, as he then stepped one step forward his hand on his shoulder.
” I understand Adam, but, you can’t blame us for that” Harry whispered, as tears just streamed down my face, taking in that information.
I suddenly realized that Luke was probably going to tell me at that little lunch place, he was going to tell me that I was going to be godmother of a beautiful little boy or girl, that they were going to adopt a little kenyan kid, who probably would love Adam and Luke. And I closed my eyes, tears streaming down my face, as I then opened them seeing Adam just crying out into Harry’s arms.
I looked at the two of them.
“You know, that because of the death of Luke, and you being legally married to him that Zayn is your godchild” Harry whispered softly, but I could hear it, and closed my eyes trying not to combust into any more tears.
“It’s all going to be ok Adam. It’s all going to be ok” Harry whispered.
“No it isn’t, cause Luke isn’t here with me”
“Yes he is” Zayn then whispered, and We all turned our head, and Zayn just stood there taking a deep breath. “I want you to meet my son. Luke William Malik”
We all looked at Zayn for a second, and we then realized that their little boy would be born, and I looked at Zayn for a second, who stared back at me, and I closed my eyes.
When we walked back, Jennifer was sitting on the bed, being just stitched up, and she was just holding onto the cutest little thing, I already knew that, as Taylor and Zayn were sitting next to her.
“So that’s a little boy, just like me was?” Zayn whispered to Jennifer, and Jennifer smiled looking at him.
“If he were to become like you, I would be the proudest mother in the whole entire world” Jennifer said, and she then looked up seeing the four of us standing there.
“Hey” She said, with a small smile, looking into my eyes, and I just smiled back at her, tears in my eyes, as I mouthed back an ‘Hey’. She understood that I couldn’t talk and she then looked back down, Big Zayn went and sat down, picking little Zayn up first, and putting him on his lap, as he gave Jennifer a huge sloppy kiss on the forehead.
I then took one deep breath as I walked over, along with Harry behind Zayn, and I looked at the little fellow.
He had Brown beautiful hair, and he had just opened his eyes, and it were the beautiful brown eyes, that looked loads like the ones Luke had.
It was really as if Luke was here.
But I guess, in a way he was.
I walked through the halls of the hospital, the hospital, I hated with all my heart, and I just held onto Harry’s hand even tighter then I already did, as he was holding little Zayn in the other, and I took one deep breath as Harry turned his head slightly as I just held on tighter as we were in the elevator now, and we were passing the third floor, where I had stayed after the whole ‘kidnapping’ thing, and Harry just pressed a small kiss on my temple, and I looked at him, and he gave me a small smile, as Zayn just looked at me giving me a big smile on his face.
“Can I be in mommy’s arms?” He asked Harry, and Harry looked at me for a second, and I just gave a small nod, as Zayn then went in my arms, his arms around my neck, and his legs trying to get around my waist as he just put his head against my neck, and his lips on my neck, me taking some deep breaths as he then after a while, just before we got out of the elevator said.
“I love you mummy”
And I just smiled as I looked at Harry for a second, as I opened my mouth, but no voice was actually coming out, and I closed my eyes for a second, hoping to god, or Luke, that he would give me the change to say just four words ‘I love you too’. But When I opened my mouth again, there was still no voice coming out, so I gave him a small kiss, trying not to be too hurt about it.
When we reached the floor, we walked out of the elevator and Harry just leaded me to wherever we needed to be.
We then arrived by a door, and Harry gave me a small smile, as he then opened the door, and we walked in.
Everyone turned around for one second.
I saw Niall and Romy just sitting on one chair together, being weirdly cute together at the moment, before they realized that I was standing here, and they then had turned their head towards us, and they both gave me a small smile. The next, was Liam and Danielle, who were sitting on two chairs, while little Taylor was sleeping, and right at that moment I realized that little Zayn was sleeping too, in my arms, like a little spider.
I then looked at Louis and Eleanor as I saw that they were just sitting on one chair together as well, being the cutest couple in the whole entire world.
I then saw Zayn’s parents, with his sisters, the people I had never actually met before, I had seen then at the wedding, but I was too busy with not trying to freak out about Zayn getting married, that I didn’t realize them,even if I had been madly in love with Zayn, and now thinking about it, I was meant to be with Zayn. And it was just sort of weird, in the way they were staring at me now, in pity but also in the ‘o my god she and my brother/son had almost had sex’ face.
I just gave them a small smile, as I then turned my head, and I saw two people I didn’t ever want to see again, but I realized, since Jennifer was the one giving birth, that they would off course be here.
It were Luke’s parents, and they just stared at me in the ‘O my god, she looks so horrible’ way, but also, I think, in the way ‘O my god it’s her fault that my son is dead’ look, and I just frowned slightly as they were looking at me, before I closed my eyes for a second, holding onto Harry’s hand even tighter, this all happening in two seconds, that staring.
The last two people, were apparently busy before we came in, with the pushing and all, as I just looked at Zayn, who was now staring back at me.
It was weird seeing him, after I had not seen him for like four months, it was just weird that he had not come and visited me all of the sudden, and I wanted to ask Harry what had gone wrong, but I then realized that he was never in a million years going to tell me anyhow, and the whole part where I couldn’t actually talk.
Then I looked at the mother, who was just taking deep breaths at the moments, as she looked really tired, me thinking of the time where I was that tired, it was in the elevator, and the same person was next to me, Zayn, and then Romy. And Luke was making total fun of me the whole time, and it was one of the best, and funniest days in the whole entire world.
I closed my eyes again for a second, sort of blinking, but I kept it closed longer, as a tear then rolled down my cheek, as Jennifer then opened her eyes and looked into mine directly, and even if she had green eyes, I had this feeling that I saw Luke’s eyes right away, and in a way it scared me, it was actually as if Luke was staring at me, and it just scared me to death, as I then looked away from those eyes, and looked back into other brown eyes, Zayn’s.
“Hey” He said smiling “Great of you to be here!”
I just froze as I heard his voice, the voice that I had not heard for months, suddenly was there, and it was as beautiful as ever, and I was just following Zayn’s movements, as he stood up and walked over to us.
He first gave Harry a hug, which was a very long one, longer then socially acceptable if it was just a ‘Hey bro how are you’ hug, it was more of a ‘I missed you and I want you to hold me hug” And I just looked at my little son, giving him a small kiss on the back of his head, as Zayn then let go of Harry, Harry trying not to burst out into tears.
I looked at Zayn who looked at me, as he then gave me the most beautiful and biggest smile in the whole entire world, as he then, took one deep breath looking at Zayn, Harry already taking Zayn off of me, as Zayn then wrapped his arms around me, and I, freezing, just stood still for one or two seconds, before I wrapped my arms around his neck, and just burried my face into his neck, breathing in his amazing scent, trying to think of the last time we had talked, well he had talked, me had written, both of us having a huge smile on our faces, but I couldn’t think of the last time, but right now I was smiling as my face was on his shoulders, and I felt him smiling against me.
“Hey babe” He whispered softly, as he then let go of me and I looked at him for a second and smiled as I gave him a polite nod, as Harry then held onto my hand once more.
It was very awkward, but Zayn then looked at Jennifer for a second, who was just staring at the three of us, and she then gave a small nod, Harry seeing it as well, as Harry then smiled.
“So how is our mother to be?” He said as he then looked at Louis for a second, who then took Zayn out of Harry’s arms for a second, as Harry then walked over to Jennifer, and gave her a kiss, but I just didn’t know what to do, as I felt everyone staring at me, except for Zayn, Harry and Jennifer, who were now in a conversation, and I was just looking at nothing in particular for a while, until I saw in my imagination saw Luke walking in with a camera.
I just closed my eyes, as tears crept down my cheeks, as I then decided that I didn’t want to do this here, I didn’t want people to see me, so I turned around, and looked at the door, and I walked to it, opening it, as I then closed it behind me again.
IT was such a bad Idea to come, and it got even worse when I bumped into someone.
I looked up, wanting to say sorry, but I couldn’t.
First of all, I couldn’t talk.
But second of all, the person standing before me, probably didn’t even want to hear it, and I looked into those piercing dark brown eyes, and I followed his face, him looking a tad horrible, with flowers in his hand.
Adam Young was standing right before me, looking as disgusted as ever.