The song of a heart chapter 54.
I didn’t even drive home, I just drove towards the fitness right away, trying to calm down, a lot. But I couldn’t I just thought about the words ’ you laid there with all your fatness’ and I Then parked the motor where it was allowed, and I walked inside, I bought a day pass, and I just went to the boxing place, and I just kicked the hell out of the boxing thing, trying not to burst out into tears.
But I failed, and after about thirty minutes of trying not to cry, I just thought about the whole conversation, and tears started to stream down my face, from my grey eyes.
I sort of fell to the floor, bursting out into tears, and I felt everyone looking at me. But I just didn’t care.
I then stood up, ignoring everyone, and I went to the dance place.
I choose one of the songs, and I just started dancing, and dancing, and dancing, almost hurting myself.
I then sat down, tears streaming down my face.
“Are you ok miss?” A voice then said.
I looked up at the person saying it, and I took one deep breath. Regonizing him right away, him recognizing me right away.
“What are you doing here Charlotte?” Niall then said, as he sat down in front of me, and I just took one deep breath.
“I think it’s better if I leave” I said, standing up “And for you too. I think you should go to Zayn”
“you two didn’t break up did you?”
“Yeah. We did” I Said, as I then sort of walked away, leaving him just speechless.
I was speechless myself.
I then just stepped back on the motor, trying to calm down, really trying to calm down.
As I didn’t want to have an accident, I didn’t want to do that now.
I then got home, and I took one deep breath as I parked the motor, and I walked inside.
My mum left a note for me.
“we’re out for dinner, have fun celebrating with Zayn :)XXX”
Tears started to roll down my cheeks, as I then walked up the stairs, and went to the music room.
I turned on the video camera.
I then started playing the piano version of Rihanna’s ‘cry’
(The bold is just her putting more emotion to it)
I’m not the type to get my heart broken
I’m not the type to get upset and cry
‘Cause I never leave my heart open
Never hurts me to say goodbye
Relationships don’t get deep to me
Never got that whole in love thing
And someone can say they love me truly
But at the time it didn’t mean a thing
My mind is gone
I’m spinnin round
And deep inside
My tears I’ll drown
I’m losin grip
What’s happenin
I strayed from love
This is how I feel
This time was different
Felt like I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now I’m in this condition
And I’ve got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what, you’ll never see me cry
Did it happen when we first kissed
‘Cause it’s hurtin me to let it go
Maybe cause we spent so much time
And I know its no more
I should have never let you hold me baby
Maybe why I’m sad to see us part
I didn’t give it to you on purpose
Can’t figure out how you stole my heart
My mind is gone
I’m spinnin round
And deep inside
My tears I’ll drown
I’m losin grip
What’s happenin
I strayed from love
This is how I feel
This time was different
Felt like I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now I’m in this condition
And I’ve got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what, you’ll never see me cry
How did I get here with you I’ll never know
I never meant to let it get so personal
And after all I tried to do
To stay away from lovin’ you
I’m broken hearted I can’t let you know
And I won’t let it show
You won’t see me cry
This time was different
Felt like I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now I’m in this condition
And I’ve got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what, you’ll never see me cry
All my life
I then posted it with a :( on twitter, and I then stood up and walked over to my bed, and just laid there, trying to cope with the loss.
I had not heard, or wanted to hear, all the calls that I was now getting from the rest of the boys, or my friends, or danielle, eleanor. I didn’t want to look at the mist alls, I just fell asleep, tears streaming down my face.
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