- louis every morning: today im going to be gay
April 2012
“WHAT WERE YOU THINKING?” I heard Louis yell.
I was just sitting on the couch, staring ahead, tears silently flowing down my cheeks, as I just looked at the wall.
My arms around my knees, sitting on the couch like that.
There was a whole discussion, between Liam and Niall against Harry and Louis.
Harry had not actually said anything, but just let Louis do the talking, Which was good. Cause if Harry started, Liam and Niall would give up. He was sort of a secret weapon, and the bad part was, Harry always sided with Louis, so he usually won his fights.
“WHAT?” Liam yelled back..
“YOU KNOW HOW FREAKING DEPRESSED HE’S BEEN FOR THE PAST TWO YEARS, AND HOW MUCH HE DIDN’T WANT TO GO TO THE VMA’S JUST BECAUSE SHE WOULD BE IN THE SAME ROOM, AND BE PERFORMING, AND WHAT DO YOU DO. WELL YOU INVITE HER ON THE SAME FUCKING STAGE, AND JUST LET HER SING HER ACTUAL FEELINGS TO A SONG THAT’S ALREADY WAY TOO CLOSE FOR HIM. ARE YOU OUT OF YOUR MIND!” Louis yelled, I just kept staring trying to calm down.
“THEY NEED TO GET FREAKING BACK TOGETHER, YOU DON’T KNOW WHAT HAPPENED, YOU DON’T KNOW WHAT SHE’S GOING THROUGH”
“And YOU do?” Harry then said, not screaming, so Louis couldn’t say he won yet.
“I can try to think yeah. You boys don’t know what happened, And I do. And I think, to be honest, that she’s had it a bit harder then Zayn. Even if it looks like she doesn’t.”
Niall just looked at Liam for a second.
“how do YOU know what the hell happened?” Louis then yelled.
“HE FUCKING TOLD ME” Liam yelled “HE TOLD ME WHEN HE GOT THAT FUCKING ENVELOPE. WHAT ELSE DO YOU THINK WE TALKED ABOUT? ABOUT BUTTERFLIES AND RAINBOWS. HE’S FREAKING HEARTBROKEN, AND SO IS SHE. SO I THOUGHT, THAT IF THEY SING A SONG TOGETHER, THEY MIGHT GET BACK TOGETHER” Liam yelled.
“It’s not fucking GLEE” Harry then said.
“Yeah, and singing a song about somebody that they used to know, and about her singing that she doesn’t want to live that way, and that he screwed her over, and that he could let it go. Isn’t’ really a great text is it?” Louis then yelled as well.
“THEY NEED EACH OTHER GOD DAMN IT, ARE YOU BLIND, THEY NEED TO GET TOGETHER, I’VE BEEN TELLING YOU GUYS THIS FOR FREAKING TWO YEARS NOW. AND YOU GUYS ALL AGREE WITH ME, BUT YOU DON’T DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT. SO I THOUGHT, WHY WON’T I JUST TAKE ACTION, AND DO SOMETHING, I HAD THE CHANCE TO DO IT, SO I DID” Liam yelled.
“BUT THAT DIDN’T FUCKING WORK OUT DID IT, HE’S EVEN MORE FUCKING DEPRESSED THEN HE ALREADY FUCKING WAS” Harry then yelled, his loud scream scaring everyone.
But for some reason Niall started to blend in, which he never did.
“YEAH. LIKE HE FUCKING KNEW. IT’S NOT HIS FUCKING FAULT. I’M SURE WHATEVER HAPPENED BETWEEN THOSE TWO, IS BETWEEN THEM, AND IF ZAYN DID SOMETHING TO SCREW HER OVER. IT’S HIS OWN GOD DAMN FAULT. AND WE SHOULDN’T INTERVERE” Niall yelled.
“So what are you trying to say, here?” Liam asked.
“THAT WE SHOULD JUST SHUT THE FUCK UP, AND BE THERE FOR FUCKING ZAYN. CAUSE I DON’T KNOW IF YOU HAVE NOTICED, OR IF I WAS THE ONLY ONE THAT HAS ACTUALLY SEEN ZAYN. BUT HE’S CRYING HIS BEAUTIFUL EYES OUT, AND HE NEEDS US TO BE THERE FOR HIM, NOT SCREAMING AT EACH OTHER LIKE SOME GIRLS ON THEIR FUCKING PERIODS” Niall yelled.
I then felt eight eyes staring at me, and I stared back at them.
“I’m outside” I said, tears just streaming down my cheeks, as I stood up, trying to cover up my arms, but I knew that at least one of the boys has seen it, and I just walked through the halls, and tried to calm down, as I got outside, and I fell to the ground, tears streaming down my face, thinking about her.
I lit a cigarette, and just took it in, trying not to just smoke it all in one time.
Trying to calm down.
Little did I know, that there was someone next to me.
Yes!!!! Us 90’s kids did act like kids
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THIS THIS THIS! :D I miss the Kim Possible games. They were the bomb! :> =))
Right now?:
Gotye- someone I used to know ( I like Rita Ora’s version as well)
Drake - Take Care.
1D- Moments
1D- more than this
1D- I want
….really? -_-
✂: post photo of yourself
æ: tell 5 things about your best friend
✌: share 5 things that you really want
♡: share 5 favourite songs
❁: share 5 favourite blogs
✓: tell 5 facts about yourself
♧: share 5 facts about your appearance
☆: share your current mood
✖: something you hate
☼: something you love
ϟ: ask anything
Ahh thank you :)X
today i’ll post 2, cause tomorrow, I wont’ have a lot of time.
Cause my dad will be leaving tomorrow :(
Yeah, I’ll post one/two more chapters;)X
Just posted:)X
xD
Hahaha, I alraedy wrote it.. xD
I’M SORRY
haha, well he called her a slut and fat and everything, and yeah. I mean, they were both wrong, and they both know that. :)
Hahaha. I think she just wrote this in the airplane, when she was angry. at him















